Sunday was my mothers birthday and despite last year’s events, I did send her flowers. I thought maybe they would motivate her to give me a call, but it didn’t, I received a text message saying Thank You, which was more than I expected. From what I can tell, she still refuses to speak to me. I’ve tried calling her phone and she doesn’t answer. Text messaging has become the only form of communication and she still doesn’t respond to that every time.
I believe it is a time of forgiveness but somewhere in her crazy mind, she believes that I did something wrong. I’m not sure what and I guess I really shouldn’t care. She abandoned me. Maybe thats an exaggeration, but think about it. Her boyfriend tried to rough me up a bit and she defended him, saying I didn’t do anything around the house. I practically raised my brother when she spent all her time in the bar getting plastered.
Someday I hope I have a family and that I can give them 100 times the better life than I have had in the past 7 years. This kind of stuff has to stop, I want to be there every moment my children need me. I don’t want to be some loser in a bar trying to pick up every whore that will sleep with me. I want to make a 100% commitment to my family and make sure they come first.